You know, all the other disciples hated Judas.
They probably thought that he was too much of a zealot; far more of a sinner than they were to have sullied his hands with his own people’s blood for the sake of politics.
They must have been disgusted and confused to see their tender rabbi treat a terrorist with such love.
Yet, Christ must have seen something beautiful in him.
He must have seen Judas’ wrath towards the Roman-sympathizers as if he were a lion. Perhaps, he even saw a gentleness in Judas’ dark somber eyes that no one else could see.
If anything that must have made them hate Judas more. Every kiss or tender touch must have made them sick, because what had he done to deserve such a thing? He was still so harsh and cruel.
In the Gospel of Judas, he comes to Christ and tells him that he dreams of the other disciples stoning him. In return, Jesus tells him that he sees the truth most clearly of them all…
That’s why Judas is considered a folk saint to much of Latino Catholics.
It is because in Latin America, all of us are forced to commit sins for our own survival, and for the betterment of our communities.
People would starve were it not for the cartels giving money to the people. The government would take the lands of the poor were it not for the assassinations of government officials who try to keeping them at bay. Many places would be a military regime were it not for the powerful mafias keeping the state at bay.
It is why we call our teenage assassins in Colombia, for example, Sicarios, derived from the same word that gave Judas his name.
Innocents forced to commit sins due to the circumstances of their lives, whose victims end up being sent to Heaven due to the nature of their death.
It’s horrible. It’s why Fernando Vallejo’s famous novel is La Virgen de los Sicarios, which is a personal epithet of mine for The Virgin Mary as Our Lady of Holy Death, or La Santa Muerte.
Mary, after all, knew that Christ would die. It is why she is the Mother of Sorrows. She knew her Son would have to die for the rest of humanity. And she knew her Son would have to be killed by someone, would have to die in a series of events set off by someone.
Thus, it is my belief that Mary forgave Judas, if not during life then after she Ascended.
All of this is important
I’m always disappointed at how easily people want to slip into the ‘love and light’ concept of Christianity, when it truly is a religion born from darkness and pain.
When it is made into something only happy and cheerful, it lessens the meaning to near nothing. The forsaken who built this religion are pushed to the sides and ignored and that sickens me.
Which is why I constantly blame Protestantism for being a core contributer for the shitty parts of USA society. The brushing under the rug of death and suffering, even theologically.